cant do it on my own ;-[

my baby is gone. hes gunna be going to jail - the detectives say probly a year HOPEFULLY less. why? well his past caught up with him cuz he broke into his neighbors house to steal jewlery and pawned it for drugs. i almost got arrested for not telling the cops where he was but i just kept playing stupid but they knew anyways he got to rehab and was in for 6 days for detox so hes clean and he loves feeling clean he said but hes turning himself in on monday. and im like let me come see you before you go away for like a year and he said he'd just break down even more he said his eyes are all blood shot from crying and hearing my voice and seeing me sad he said would kill him i mean i wanna understand but i wanna see him so bad! least the last time we saw eachother i gave him a kiss and waved bye =[ ugh i miss him so much i got a shirt of his and refuse to wash it cuz it smells like him. everybody is telling me to move on and forget about him when its more complicated then that. nov.26th was our 2nd month anniversary and we didnt break it off cuz i told him tell me what jail and ill come visit you and write him everyday and im hopein he'll call me sometimes but who knows. god it fckn sucks can never be happy. it was all going good he was gunna go to rehab and be clean and we start a fresh clean life together now this? im just thankful it wont be prison - if its prison idk what ill do just thinkin of him in there will make me sick. ive been depressed and sick like everyday since friday . went to see my bestfriend in tampa went to bush gardens and that night was throwing up - it was either the stress or something i ate or possibly both. but yeah i saw twilight nd 4 christmases and they were good. anyways ima end it here . this song playin describes how im feelin 150% god i miss him. im hopein the judge gives him community service and a few months in jail . ugh! anyways im out . comments would be great . laterr